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lulupetals is a mental health and lifestyle blog. It's mostly about my stories and experiences with mental illness, but includes some sociopolitical topics and lifestyle entries - with additional pages to appear soon. Best reading platform is the PC, as the Mobile version omits all keywords/labels and my entries are so long. Please read "On privacy" about EU privacy and cookies laws ; "Intro" & "blog manual" to navigate.
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Thursday 30 November 2023
482 - An Ode to Birds
Wednesday 8 November 2023
481 - Marianne's Hands - A Poem
I initially composed this poem in French, back on 23rd October (2023). I encoded certain information there, including in certain compositional constraints that I chose. You can read the original here.
In adapting, I had to sacrifice most of the rhymes, in order to keep it flowing.
Tuesday 7 November 2023
480 - Psychotherapy Nov 2023
Given my travel difficulties, I have had several psychotherapy sessions by phone, and yesterday's continued this tradition.
Before explaining the topics of our conversation, I detail what has been happening for several weeks and warn you, the subject is heavy, so a Trigger Warning follows.
Friday 14 July 2023
479 - American Decay V2
Image : one of my own photos, taken during hiking.
Trigger warnings due to content : suggestive material, anti-religion, anti-guns, critic of usa overturning roe vs wade
I was inspired to compose the text, mixing some Babylon 5's 1st season intro (you can read it here) and some Lord of the Rings reference (the One ring to rule them all...)
Monday 3 July 2023
478- The Dragon and the Phoenix poem
note : image edit using several copyright free sources, blended into the poem's narrative.
My 17th composed poem since June 2022 was inspired from a phrase that Joyce Lee said in her music stream (homepage here), from 2 or 3 weeks ago, something about a stalemate between a dragon and a phoenix (perhaps not exactly in that wording, I don't recall precisely).
Wednesday 21 June 2023
477- The Chaplet - Poem
Wednesday 14 June 2023
476 - Health Updates for the past 18 months
Image: pic of my sprained ankle in the brace, edited.
Below : 1,238 words long entry
It's been such a long time since I last updated you about anything, so here goes - a whole entry about my health in the past year, or actually year and half.
Monday 15 May 2023
475 - Living in a religious cult 7 - failed parenting
When I posted my sixth living in a religious cult entry, back in July 2022, I thought I was done with the series that started in October 2017. However, just like I said back then, it's probably impossible to be exhaustive - at least on a blog - in telling all that occurred in those traumatic years in my father's religious cult.
Today, I discuss the topic of parenthood : that of his failures as a parent might be evident already from previous entries, but requires expanding and perhaps clarification.
Monday 8 May 2023
474 - Brainstorm - A Poem
Saturday 6 May 2023
473 - Eat the Rich! - Slam Poetry 01
It's pretty cool to be present in Twitch streams and get inspired into writing poems. That's how I participated in a challenge, changing it from song writing to poetry - you can read all 10 with the label 'EmmaMcGann'.
Yesterday, I was in Kelli, aka Kelaska's stream, and during a conversation about rhymes, song VS poem composition with or without them, someone asked what rhymed with 'sausage'.
Monday 1 May 2023
472 - His Last Page - A poem
Emma Mcgann's song writing challenge is over, and now I finally arrive to its 10th and last prompt : The last page (e.g. inspiring book, conclusion, bitter end).
Sunday 30 April 2023
471- From Wall to Wall a tale of two parallel lives - a Poem
Friday 28 April 2023
470 - Unsent letter to a despot - a poem
Emma Mcgann's song writing challenge is over, as it lasted 10 days (17-26 April), each with its own prompt. If you recall, I'd converted the challenge into poems, and I now post #8, for which the prompt was "unsent letter" (e.g. texts, lost words, apologies).
I oscillated between trials of a light topic, but couldn't come up with more than a line or two, and a much much heavier topic, presented below.
I must display a trigger warning, for psycho-emotional abuse, trauma and a tad graphic content - in a 388 word long text.
Wednesday 26 April 2023
469 - Roof of the Mountain - A poem
Emma Mcgann's song writing challenge is over, as it lasted 10 days, each with its own prompt.
As I converted the challenge into poems, and being slower, I'm now at my 7th - don't worry, I'll compose and post the others in the next few days, with a bonus in the works...
The prompt for this was "Silence" (e.g. solitude, quiet, abandoned), for which I chose to break from heavier topics, and wrote this about the silence and solace that nature offers, particularly on top of a mountain I love hiking to.
The image above was taken there, and I took the artistic approach for the text, Mountain going upwards, around the macro attachment's view (this topic is mentioned below)
Tuesday 25 April 2023
468 - Strands of Shadows - A poem
Day 6 – shadows (light & dark, illusive, ghosts,,,) in Emma Mcgann's song writing challenge - I'll remind you that I adapt the challenge to write poems.
467 - A wonderful party - A poem
I got behind again, so I'm catching up with my poems, adapting from Emma Mcgann's song writing challenge.
Day 5 : Song of the seasons (e.g. autumn, christmas, halloween)
For this, I decided to write a fan-fic poem, and left a small hint as to which "wonderful party" I allude...
Sunday 23 April 2023
466 - Prison Escape - a poem
Slowly catching up with my late poem posting, for Emma Mcgann's song writing challenge.
Day 4 : Time Travel (e.h history, make a chage, end of an era)
For this, I remain with the topics of mental illness, as it regards religious trauma, and thus warrants a trigger warning.
465 - Shifting Greys - a poem
After several attempts which all stemmed into a current preoccupation of my depression, I kept the topic but managed to find a ray of light to end this poem for day 3's "Colors of Emotion" in Emma Mcgann's challenge.
Thursday 20 April 2023
464 - Fixed Point - a poem
For day 2 in Emma Mcgann's challenge, I struggled so much to come up with an inanimate object, and one of the keywords Emma gave in the prompts was "wall" (that and the other details on her website).
Tuesday 18 April 2023
463 - Dreamland : a poem
Tuesday 20 September 2022
462- Addiction & traumas : Why I gave up alcomahol (long ago)
I recall that for a time, I had withdrawal symptoms and know therefore that in the course of his giving these to me, I had developed an addiction, which luckily for me, is far gone and part of my distant past.
Monday 15 August 2022
461- Patriarchal apologies
Note on image: I used a copyright free image, copied and reversed, added my text of examples in black, and title in red.
Note on content : in some passages, I take a sarcastic speech, but I don't personally believe in the phrases. I'm an intersectional feminist and lgbtqia+ included (trans women are women, there are more than two genders and more than one sexuality), but I showcase patriarchy in this entry.
It is, by no means, exhaustive in examples.
Hereafter, a medium, 1,632 word long, entry ensues, with a TW section at the bottom.
In today's (15 August 2022) Mae's stream, an important feminist topic arose as to why women tend to apologize more than men, and for everything - including things they're not even remotely responsible for.
Thursday 4 August 2022
460 - American Decay : A poem
Image : one of my own photos, taken during hiking. Edited for today's topic, shown in a poem form. Added a faint, twisted representation of the flag
Trigger warnings due to content : suggestive material, anti-religion, anti-guns, critic of usa overturning roe vs wade
I was inspired to compose the text, mixing some Babylon 5's 1st season intro (you can read it here) and some Lord of the Rings reference (the One ring to rule them all...)
Addendum : after my wife read the poem and told me her thoughts, I want to specify that I purposefully composed it with discordance, in view of the topic. I may revisit and alter order of phrases for closer , more apparent rhymes ; In that eventuality, I'd also uniformize my language and not mix two styles, but for now, this is the current version, with its mess and variations.
Medium entry with 602 words (poem itself) + 156 with adaptation examples in the bottom.
Sunday 31 July 2022
459- Qui Vive - A poem
Yesterday, I wrote another mental health related poem, this time about GAD and panic attacks.
The image is my own, artistically edited. Here goes.
Edit 5/05/2023 : a title is added :
Thursday 28 July 2022
458 - X-Strologer
As often, I merely added the text on a copyright free image,
and this entry's another long one 2,317 words 13,720 characters
The time has arrived to disclose to you, readers, that after several years of growing disinterest into a very popular topic, I have totally quit on... astrology.